Love?

Love.  Love is given so many definitions.  Love is exalted.  Love is polluted.  Love is committed.  Love is defiled.  Love is a choice.  Love is a verb.  Love is lied about for lust.  Love is tried.  Love is vexed.  Love is pressed.  Love is trampled on in the grape press by the smelly feet of those who don’t know what it really is.  Love is bigger.  Love is stronger.  No matter who you know or what you think- Love ALWAYS WINS.

1 Corinthians 13.  Is a chapter.  It’s a chapter about love.  Sounds out-dated, right?  Read it.  It’s small.  It won’t be a waste of time.  Love is so important.  Love must be embraced.  Love must be learned.  Love must be taught.  Love must be embraced.  And this is what it is…

“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.  Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.  For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways.”

(1 Corinthians 13:4-11, Known to be a teaching of Paul.)

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As the Moon Waxes & Wanes- So, My Soul

I. Was. Tired. I was tired of listening to the voices of everyone around me telling me who to love, what to do, how to do it and when.  I was a broken record, a dark space.  I was a voice with no listeners. I was a trumpet with no echo.  I was losing.  My life was being sifted through the colander of testing and what was being left behind was not enough.  It. Was. Not. Enough. To Show. For.  The gold was there after the fire had convulsed and consumed every bit of dross around it.  But, the nuggets were small.  The fire returned… More convulsing and consummating of wood, hay, and stubble.

My dreams.  My dreams have led me into a path of uncertainty.  My dreams have led me to a place with beauty but no intimacy.  My dreams have led me here- to be alone.  Perhaps that’s exactly what I’m needing right now anyway?

Who am I?  What am I here on Earth for?  Why is life so hard?  Where are the “true” people?  Where are the loyal ones?  Where are the caring ones?  Where are the people who don’t just look out for themselves- but care?  Where are the ones that care for the small.  Where are the ones that care for the new guys?  Where are the ones that care for the voiceless?

Hope.  Hope is the anchor of the soul.  In a time of waiting.  In a time of unknowing.  Cling.  Wrap your fingers around the passion in your being- the person of love who dwells in spirit and grip.  Don’t. Let. Go. Of. Hope.

Someone’s Holding Out on Me- NOT.

14045486_10154461401648276_1502590495_oJealousy and envy are widely known as being emotions that are set off by an internal belief that someone is holding out on you- or something won’t happen for you- while these things are frequently happening for other people.

To give place to jealousy or envy, you have to first be unwilling to see that 1. good things are meant to happen to you and 2. that there is more than enough of goodness in the world to go around and more than that, 3. – that there is a faithful Creator who actually LOVES giving His children great gifts.  And maybe you don’t believe in His existence at all.

I currently live in the Vail Valley, Colorado.  This place is mainly known for it’s vibrant ski seasons, with tons of powder snow days, ski gear, multi-million dollar homes, cutting edge interior design, and also for high-end boutique shops.  If there’s anything in the world of worlds that you desire, you can find it in Vail, Colorado.

I work at a condominium/ hotel that is owned privately by a few individuals, who use it as a vacation home, once or twice a year.  Talk about the temptation for jealous and envy.

My heart, on a regular basis, is tried and struggles to believe that 1. God is good, 2. He is worth seeking, and 3. that He has a great plan for my well-being and welfare.

Things haven’t been easy for me… and this for quite a long time.  Losing my Mom in 2010 was a huge blow to my plans and heart. She had committed to paying for half of my private-school education debt (that I attended for two years, until I graduated).  But suddenly, I had no more Mother… and because of that, I lost her faithful friendship, moral and even financial support.  She meant the world to me, and I had to learn how to “do life” without her zeal, passion, and love.  Not an easy task, my friends.

Here in Vail, it’s also a family town… People come here on lavish family vacations.  Many people coming in from Mexico bring their nannies to help them with their children, and I see them enjoying so many luxuries that every, single, day my mind must be “guarded” and protected with the right type of thoughts.

The type of thoughts that I have to remember to focus on are pure, and non-toxic.  The thoughts that I have to focus on are that this world is a momentary, passing shadow of a greater, long-term reality- called Eternity… Next, I have to focus on the fact that even though things haven’t gone the way that I would have wanted, I am still Beloved of the Creator (Yahushua) and that He has promised to always provide for my EVERY need.  So, that in itself should demolish jealousy and envy.  And, it does- but I have to be willing to let my thoughts GO THERE.

And lastly, even though it’s taking longer than I would have wanted to accomplish certain goals, it doesn’t make me a failure or lacking of personal worth or value.  Thus, I can take heart and FEEL 1. successful as I approach every day with a positive/ kind attitude toward others, and 2. I can rid my soul of jealousy and envy because my God is big enough to provide for everything- even the most silly desires of my heart.

I think one of the struggles that I have that can keep me from bringing the truth, is the disappointments from things not going the way that I would have hoped; like losing my Mom, Uncle, and cousin all in the 2 years of time.  It makes you question your beliefs and wonder if God was really good, why would he even allow things kinds of devastations?

And the truth is, that I have no idea… except that in the beginning of time, human beings chose to rebel against His perfect ways and because of that- sin (also known as “death”) entered the world.  Because of death’s existence in the world, people have to now choose a path of life, we have to consciously choose love, hope, faith, and redemption.  These things don’t happen by themselves anymore- like when things weren’t stained by impurity.
Thus, it’s for that reason, that I can understand that 1. God didn’t passively kill my mom and destroy my hope for the future.  Death b/c of human’s fallen nature and the curse that is on creation is what caused my Mother’s death- not God.  Although, he was present and IS present in the midst of all of our suffering. His presence was there to comfort and mourn with us, in our mourning.

It’s focusing on the truth- that brings life, joy, and peace.  What is the truth?  Is the truth that you can meditate your way into happiness?  Is the truth that you can find peace in any religion, faith, or belief system?  Or is the truth a straighter and more “narrow” understanding that is challenged by the statement of Yahushua, “I am the way, the truth, and the life- no man comes to the Father, except through me.”

You see, this generation is selling something to you.  They want your monthly memberships. They want you addicted to that essential oil fragrance… They want you to believe that by lining things up in a certain way- you will find hope and peace.  They want you buying their yoga mats and books on self-help.  But, hope, faith, joy, peace, and the ability to do the right things in life come by a work of something deeper and more powerful than mere human will or even conscious awareness.  It’s by finding this one and only true higher power, that we are able to live the lives we were meant to live and be free to be the people we truly are.

Featured pictures are taken by myself or Jacob Schultz on our recent Lake Constantine, CO hike.  One thing I can do every day to rid myself of toxic thoughts, is to remember to be thankful for the amazing times I’ve had; that I was able to move to Colorado, even though it seemed impossible and that the best is always yet to come.

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An Evening Excerpt into the Deep

“Deep calls to deep at the roar of your waterfalls; all your breakers and your waves have gone over me…”

Psalm 42:7

This was meant to be a facebook post… and has become a blog.  I hope you read it still. 

First, some eye candy from my first trip to Colorado.  Yes, I actually fell in love there- with the state.  😉

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(Photo Credit: Me, Boulder and Estes Park, CO) IMG_6434

Realizing that who we are now is far more important than who we used to be or who we think we’re becoming.  We (the global “we” of most people I’ve ever met) always talk about living in the moment. But do we think about who we are in that moment? No, we’re not meant to be self-focuesed in life… on the contrary- we need to be self-aware.

Be aware that in reality- life is SHORT.  Time is limited.  Moments turn into days, days into months… months into years… years into the whole of life. Therefore, each moment is a new chance to transform or to digress.

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Do we currently burn for the kind of passions that will last forever? Does our schedule reflect our “belief system” at all? Is it merely a belief system and not your actual lifestyle?

Do we choose to make “priorities” a priority? Do we love? Not only ourselves, but people from other faith back-grounds? Do we know the truth of how to love in a pure way? Are we patient? Kind? Forbearing in love? Gentle? Tender-hearted? Forgiving (if we’ve been forgiven)? Do we get angry easily? Do we hold offense toward people? Are we bitter?

Have we ever cared enough to ask ourselves that?

Do we love anyone other than ourselves? Do we love ourselves (not in the self-obsessed kind of way… just a “taking good care of” self way)? Do we take good care of our inner being; mind, soul, spirit, heart?  How do we know we’re doing that?   Are we relaxed or stressed?

Have you ever thought of what that would look like if you did? Where would you go? What would you do? Would you spend more time alone?

Do we wake up with thankfulness toward what we’ve been given, or a complaint if things are perfectly the way we want them to be?

Sometimes an inner complaint is a sensor telling us that things are not right. And sometimes, they’re not. Listen to that sense and ask yourself what you can do to step into a better situation. Do you need to reach out for help with that?  Can I help you, personally?

Some of these questions (not all) I’m asking myself. And though I know I can’t answer “yes” to the good things perfectly and “no” to the bad things perfectly… at least I’m aware.  I’m looking at it all directly in the eye.  The damaged is assessed.  The plan to overcome- step by step is getting set up.   The flaws are ever so apparent.  And guess what?  That’s totally ok with me!

Why is it ok?  Because I’m giving it ALL to the God on the throne who gives LIFE from the DEAD- hope to the hopeless and fullness to the desolate.  He is the way- not just in this life- but in the life to come (after death!).  He is the only way and He has promised to give me everything that I need!  

He is who I want to be just exactly like. He is my vision and my goal. My dream. He fills all in all and keeps making all things new. The best part of it is… 1. He’s not an imaginary friend- He’s real. 2. He cares for you just as much as He cares for me, 3. He can be yours too if you invite Him in. His name is Yahushua. 🙂

Love you ALL!   Goodnight from Fredericksburg, VA.

Rachel

Written by: Rachel Moberley

The Lord Sees Me. The Lord Hears Me. The Lord Cares for Me. The Lord Loves Me. I Know. But, Do I Believe?

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If I ever wondered if God was trying to speak to me- or rather, get through my hard head… today, was abundantly clear.

What was His message? Joy. Joy that transcends hard work, death, difficult circumstances, uncertainty… Joy that lifts off depression and weariness and strengthens the inner being. Joy that makes you smile when things are going wrong… Joy that brings laughter from tears.  Do I like the concept of joy?   Well… in truth, many times in my life, because of the things that I have suffered- I have felt a sense of hatred toward joy.   Joyful people irritate me… Happy irritate me…  Joyful families really get me down- because my family is never together.  (We’re scattered around the world and my Mother is in Heaven.)

But despising joy will do nothing other than cause me to become my own worst enemy…  Joy needs to be received.  It needs to be embraced in the heart… It needs to be released.  If it gets left out- we lose strength spiritually and emotionally- and we will not make it in life.   I am starting to understand this… and I know that unless something changes in terms of HOW I go about getting joy- regularly- I WILL NOT make it in life.

The JOY of the LORD is OUR STRENGTH!  It’s ALL we’re promised for that… so we need to take it to the bank and cash it.

This morning, I had the blessing of hearing my older brother (by 4 years) D.J. Moberley​ preach at his home church (Grace Church of Fredericksburg​) on the topic of joy.  I told him the night before that if he needed a prototype of someone to speak to- it was me.  I was feeling so joy robbed and deprived of happiness.   It’s as silly as the Summer heat and humidity getting me down… (Cares of this life and the deceitfulness of riches- to be sure.)

I knew that God would bring truth and conviction to my soul. And He did- in a clear, and powerful way.

Later, I went to hear my spiritual mom, mentor, boss, and friend Sharon Glasgow​ speak at Encounter Church of God. Guess what the topic may have been? Yep. It was on Joy.

Her message was almost completely the same as my brother’s- and this was not simply because they’re both good at articulating the word of God (theologically speaking). But, both of them have a deeper revelation- through experience AND more than that, the Holy Spirit had the reigns on both of their words.  Thus, the two messages were so similar it was like hearing the Lord say the same thing to ME- only in slightly different ways.

Could I question if He wanted ME to hear this message today?  Yep. I questioned it.  And I realized how obvious that it was. Duh!! He set this whole thing up- for ME.  Wow… does that sound selfish? No… not in light of the character and nature of our Heavenly Abba.   When one of us are suffering- He will stop at NOTHING and pull out all of the stops to SHOW His care and love. And that’s just what He did.

After that, I stopped by my church to just say hi to friends as I thought they would be leaving- and traffic on both roads home was really backed up… Little did I know that God was still moving through His people and hovering over us like a cloud of grace, peace, and goodness. I felt His presence so strong that I started shouting “Halleluyah!! Halleluyah!!”

Wasn’t long before my Pastor’s wife came over, laid her hands on me and was praying… The tears came like sweet, healing rivers… So, to make another long story- long… I felt the deep love of the Heavenly Father. Knowing it and feeling it are totally different. We are supposed to live by faith- not feeling. But- love is tangible.  And tonight- He wanted me to be able to tangibly receive His real love.  Words can’t explain what happened today- or even why it was so important.  But today, let it be marked that on August 2, 2015- Jesus gave me eyes to see His pursuit of my heart.  How sweet it is to be loved by Him.

The point is- God cares. He sees. He will do ANYTHING to help us hear His voice and get us to a place of being able to receive from Him.  He’ll even have you go to two different churches to hear the SAME message- all “by coincidence.”

Today, He was swirling around me. I’m sure it’ll take me ages to fully understand why. 🙂

(Photo credit: Blog.8faces.com)

Invitation or Rejection and Their Power

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Invitation has a powerful substance. There’s like… weight to the word.

Being “invited…” Not being “invited…” Bears some weight in life, doesn’t it?

I’m learning something these days about the meaning of invitation- in spiritual terms… but from my natural world in the wedding business as a Coordinator.

I get to go to TONS of weddings… One every, single weekend. But for some of these, I may just feel like a total wedding crasher. Why? (You may ask)… The reason is that for each wedding that we have here, I may or may not be the paid Coordinator. I may be part of our maintenance staff.  The reason is that, I wasn’t actually invited by the hosts of the wedding.

Sometimes the difference in how it feels though, is just real. 

I live in a large community of people- Fredericksburg, VA. No, it’s not a big city… but it’s a small city with a lot of “county” and in that, a lot of people who see each other at common places of gathering. This means, that we ALL have a LOT of acquaintances.

The thing that becomes challenging (for me) is when one of those people get married. I don’t know what it is, or why… but ever since I was a child, I have LOVED weddings. I think I probably wanted to be an official wedding crasher- since I was a kid as one of the only things I would do with my life. (Exaggerating slightly… but no, the sense there is strong.)

So, recently, the brother of a friend of mine got married. I’ve “known” this guy for over 10 years (as far as I can guess)… and you know what? I wasn’t on the guest list for his wedding… I was bummed. No, I didn’t go home and cry a river over it. But, my heart hurt a little. You know what I mean?

As I said before… (and stick with me, this has a MUCH deeper point to be made very soon) weddings are my passion- so to “know” someone personally and not be invited was tough. Really, it seems so childish and silly… but I’m certain that SO many of us go through this.

On the flip side… As a Coordinator, when I’m hired for my services- even if I just met the people two weeks prior to their wedding… I become part of their wedding world. This includes their stress, their organizational skills (or lack there-of), family communication dynamics, family relationship dynamics (which are always interesting), human dynamics (reading people’s body language and looking for cues). People that I just met learn my name and I get to lead them as a group for one day. It’s a pretty phenomenal thing to experience.

When a close friend gets married… I feel the joy, the passion, the beauty, the story of two lives becoming one… I take it to heart. I live it. I appreciate it. There’s a sweet, sweet feeling in celebrating major milestones with people- especially when they’re people that we hold dear.  Especially in the realm of the real and important thing called “Covenant.”

So here’s where the reality of invitation comes in. .. And get ready- this is about to be deep.

In our lives, spiritually speaking… there are “things” that in a moment we can invite into our lives and allow them to “take residence” or “take leadership”…

This is called a spiritual invitation.

These can be emotions (or spirits) that lead to depression, suicidal thoughts, alcohol excess, unhealthy relationship patterns (these are SO tough to discern!!), lust, materialism, haughtiness, pride, financial irresponsibility, gluttony, homosexuality, sexual immorality (of any kind), gossip, slander, jealousy, envy (ouch, ouch, ouch… I’m convicted as I type this!)… Believe me- the LIST goes ON for a little while.

So, I use my life as a Coordinator to illustrate that in a short period of time- I can go from being a total stranger to people- to being all up in the nitty gritty of their reality.  This is all done by means of legal authorization.  In my world- it’s a contract.  In the spiritual world it’s something a bit different.

Here’s the point. Jesus has called us to a world known as “invitation” and through this world- the greater world of “fellowship.” This is why He says that light can’t fellowship with darkness. Darkness just does’t comprehend light! Light and darkness are like oil and water… They separate and go to two opposite poles.  Have you ever met someone that you thought was attractive, but just knew it couldn’t work out because there was something moving you away from that person?  Like, something deep in your heart?  This has to do with light and darkness.

He has given us (if you are a believer in Him and love Him)- FULL access to invite Him into our everyday reality— through His Holy Spirit (which IS Him- but the Spirit, not the physical).

When we invite His Spirit into our lives, we are able to commune with him- or talk to Him. He can take over- in every situation. We want Him to take charge. We want Him to have full control of the wheel. Not that we’re drunkards (or maybe we do and it’s time to stop), but He HAS to have control in our lives. Why?

Because He is EVERYTHING good! He is EVERYTHING wonderful. He is ABLE to do far more, exceedingly and abundantly than we could wish, think, or imagine! Why would we want to be in control of our lives, when we are SO limited in what we can do without Him? You may be an over-achiever, but you sure as HECK can’t out achieve the LIVING God.

On the flip side, if we have invited (through giving emotional or mental permission) negative thinking (manifest in any of the things I mentioned before), or “sin” into our lives… These things have legal access to control our very beings. This is bad folks. This is NOT the way you want your life to go. It will cast shadows on your life; every relationship will be harmed if not destroyed and things will not go well with you.  I (just like many of you), have learned this through taking the hard road… I’ve learned this destruction- up close and personal.  I’ve lost friends… I’ve lost loved ones (suicide)… And you know what?  I’m worn out from it.  I’m tired of it.  I’ve had enough.  I want all of this OUT of my life- for GOOD.

This is why obedience to God is VITAL in the Christian life. Just because you’re “saved” from hell doesn’t mean that you’re walking in a “right spirit” (as King David cried out after his fall into adultery).

Dear Christians,

Just because we’re saved from hell- doesn’t mean that we’re always walking in a right spirit.
Just because we know what’s right- doesn’t mean that we’re walking it out in the manner in which our Messiah showed us. His ministry and our ministry is mercy.

But, this is the kind of mercy that stands firm in truth- without yielding to deceptive spirits in our generation and without yielding to even ancient man-made traditions that don’t actually reflect the Jewish Messiah and His tribe.  This is the kind of mercy that holds the line of “righteous judgement”… but draws a firm line in the sand- preventing condemnation- YET tells us to “Go and sin no more.”

So, I desire to urge you onto the right kind of invitation and the right kind of rejection. Let’s start rejecting these sin issues and literally closing the door for legal access- kicking Satan and our own negativity to the curb!  To the person reading this now, you are the ONLY person who can do this for yourself.  Holy Spirit will help you.  But no-one else on this planet can help you with this (ultimately… I’m not saying they can’t walk you through it- but the conviction must come strong and it must be kept by yourself only).  You have to do this on your own.

Keep choosing to close those doors and keep CHOOSING to invite ALL that is good, holy, blameless, and right into our lives- via Holy Spirit. This way, legal access and everything that we are will be able to fully reflect Him and His leadership skills. 🙂

I need Him.
Don’t you?

You’ve ALREADY Overcome the Spirit of Fear

“The floods have lifted up, O Lord, the floods have lifted up their voice; the floods lift up their roaring.  Mightier than the thunders of many waters, mightier than the waves of the sea, the Lord on high is mighty!  Your decrees are trustworthy; holiness befits your house, O Lord, forevermore.”  Psalm 93:3-5

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As followers of Jesus Christ (Yeshua, Messiah)… we often-times find ourselves in overwhelming situations! Don’t we?!?  Everything around us can be totally and completely swirling and seemingly a loud sound of fear comes rising up behind your back… “Fear, fear, fear…. sssss….  You can’t do this. You’re not strong enough to accomplish this. Your goals are too far-fetched… You’re not successful… You won’t ever overcome your debts… People don’t really love you… You’re just a burden… Why were you even born?  You don’t seem to have any clear purpose?  Why can’t you get some clear direction?”

The spirit of FEAR is a very, very real and manipulative substance.  It’s born from the enemy of our souls- the Satan (Ha Satan, in Hebrew- literally meaning “the satan” since it’s a created being).  The enemy who wishes with all of it’s strength that we would retreat from loving the Lord our God… that we would put a stop to all of our encouragement of the people around us… that we would surrender to a future of defeat and ultimately- that we would be so angry and bitter in the process… that we would curse our Maker- Jesus Christ and turn away from the beloved people that HE has placed in our lives.  Do you see why you can’t let this happen?!?

The spirit of fear is also rooted in a “poverty mindset…” that would harass and mock our souls into believing that we will 1. Never be the overcomers- that God’s word says that we ARE… and 2. that we would feel so worthless and dejected- that we would cease to break new ground in the Earth for the Kingdom of God.  Yet, “The Kingdom of Heaven suffers violence and the violent take it by force…” (Matthew 11:12). AND… “on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.” (Matthew 16:18).

That being said… one of the most challenging things about overcoming the spirit of fear- is that through the process, we do find ourselves to be a bit overwhelmed.  And in the process of defeat (even though the enemy hasn’t robbed us fully- yet)… we choose to give into lethargy, complaining, and even the darkness of depression- perhaps entertaining dark, demonic thoughts… and letting go of our once held high moral standards.  Although things don’t always go quite THAT far…  the battle is real, tangible, and RAGING.  The devil is RAGING.  We need to pay attention to the fact that we are warriors in a raging war- and that every emotion, thought, and temptation is part of that fight.

It’s time to take back our souls from the brink of ship-wreck.  It’s time to steward the Grace of God that we have been given!  It’s time to tend the fire of His Holy Spirit.  Beloved, this is so not easy!  As a matter of fact it is very, very hard work.  But, the reward is certain!  What we gain when we press into the fullness of God’s Spirit is 1. The spirit of POWER, love, and a SOUND MIND… and the very joy of our salvation!  Indeed, His Kingdom is the presence of righteousness, joy, and peace in His Holy Spirit!

“For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!”  (Romans 815).

So, what do I do about this?!?

I encourage you to quiet yourself before the Lord Most High… and ask Him to flood your life with His peace and truth and wait upon Him.  But, listen for His voice and then continue to move forward (in practical ways) as His Spirit leads you.  He is OUR SHEPHERD.

I believe this scripture will encourage you in the midst of the storm…

“The floods have lifted up, O Lord, the floods have lifted up their voice; the floods lift up their roaring.  Mightier than the thunders of many waters, mightier than the waves of the sea, the Lord on high is mighty!  Your decrees are trustworthy; holiness befits your house, O Lord, forevermore.”  Psalm 93:3-5